24/11/2025
if you found this page...
It's my dumb Beans focused diary, but there may be other topics in here.
It has no style at all, because truly, who cares? Do not ask about the left side of the screen.
Who am I? Just an autistic 15yro who has a weird connection to weird characters and perhaps, their creators. Many words say my relationship with Beans, but I mainly use
soulbonder,
soulbounder,
selfshipper and
fictionkin.
Am I delusional? Do I have some sort of plurality related disorder? Fuck if I know.
Anyways...
There are times where I truly believe me and Beans were meant to be. Meant to be what, you may ask?
Husbands.
Boyfriends.
Partners.
Partners in crime.
One being as a whole.
I sometimes feel his skin, and my blood rushes down my veins the same way his do.
"I want his proportions", I think to myself in the mirror, "Even if to some, they're imperfect".
Sometimes the warmth isn't in my body, it's something nearby me even if it's not truly there.
I need to see him, I need to feast my eyes like the way he feasts his gum.
24/11/2025
RELEASE THE LORE ALREADY
25/11/2025
Well. Don't know how to explain this. I truly feel like Beans today! I speak like him! I talk like him! I feel him once again!... This, o' course, comes with consequences...
I... I really miss my friends. I really miss Principal! Despite what these folks say on-line, he
was a nice guy. O' course, he was hot headed at times... But hey. Nothing to worry 'bout. Everyone has their moments, right?
I really miss Playtime. She was sweet... Yet I don't exactly remember her. It's weird.
My memory is
real foggy.... I can't remember... Them. Yet still.
27/11/2025
Yesterday i vented a little to my friends. One of them that I really trust with these kinshift kinda stuff said I might be plural in some way. So uh. Yeah. I'm plural, I guess. That label fits into me, however, I do
not diagnose myself as a D.I.D or other system. I'm just one in many!
Anyways. Reader, go read
morethanone.info. It's really helpful.
